Another month has passed by and left us with a lot of news, lessons and experiences, I kind of feel sad about it, there were a lot of things that happened through this month, some of which I can't talk about just yet, some have been rather enjoyable, some have broke my heart.
I actually had already written this post, but at the end I didn't like the way I was saying everything, so I decided to start again, I guess I'm still a perfectionist.
I started the month in a weird place not really knowing where I wanted to go and overall struggling, I was actually putting a lot of pressure on myself to be happy and enjoy everything, instead of living it and taking what life has to give me, that's why from the beginning I talked about the sweet & sour feelings I was experiencing.
One of the best things that I can say happened this month was reconnecting with my old friend who I'm going to call "The Engineer" because that's his career and he has a big passion for it, we suffered from a fall out that actually left our friendship is a horrible place, but with time we got back there and I'm more than happy to have him back in my life.
One of the saddest things was actually having to found a better home for Renzzo my puppy for a week, my mum and I cried like no other, for some it may seem like an overreaction, but when you spend your day working and not really socialising, it feels good to come home to someone that gets excited just to see you.
On other news, I reconnected with "The Editor" too, he's a lovely human being that sometimes is a little grumpy, but I do love all the support and trust he gives me, he's my number one fan and even when I don't say any of this to him as often as I should, I know he knows.
Yoga and balancing my life was quite a recurrent subject this month, I'm not going to lie and say that I've been really healthy, but I do think my eating changed a lot and I like that I know feel better, more energised but also in more control, as for yoga, I just love how I feel after it, I feel so calm within myself that I can't help but look forward to it.
Work and school have been going strong, I can't say I've been having the best days, because the load has been overwhelming and there are days when I'm barely at home, but overall I think I'm now more than grateful for that job and school. Although I feel more pressured to know what the hell I want to do with my life after college, when I don't know, I want to explore my options before settling on one, is that so bad?
My goals, well, I failed at some, but only three of them, mostly because I didn't have time and I know that it seems like I'm making an excuse, but I mean it, but next month I'm putting all of my energy towards those goals, I really want to feel good with myself for accomplishing my resolutions.
What I didn't did was read as much as I would want too, I just read two books, which is bad for me, but those two that I read were amazing and I shall be making a recommendation about it, I didn't had much time to watch anything either, so that part of my life is still on the loop, I'll figure it out at last.
As for music I've bee really alternative this month, not my usual pop but more of Coldplay and Oh Wonder, which both are amazing and have helped me get through rough mornings or evenings when I don't know if I can't take it anymore.
The most important lesson I learned this month was to care about myself and be happy with what I do and the way I look, I sometime think we are to harsh with ourselves, but once we actually learn to love ourselves it becomes almost easier and I was reminded that being sad is okay, you don't have to be happy or cheerful all the time, you have to do you and let the world keep it's track.
I'm in a good place right now, but I know how hard I've worked to be here and stay here, it hasn't been an easy rode, but it was all worthy, I don't feel like giving up anymore, I feel like facing the problem and moving on, I don't know what the future has prepared for me or if I'll be able to take it, but right now I feel strong, remember to keep on dreaming.