Ever since I started writing this blog I had one goal, one main thing I wanted to accomplish, I wanted to leave my past behind me, not live through it, learn from the mistakes and move on, but  I quickly learned that it's not as easy as it seems.
When you go through bad experiences it's easy to stay with them, to live your life through them, living with the fear that if you ever dare to do something out of the lines that you draw, it's going to happen again and again, you get stocked in this vicious circle where you can't let go of the pain.
You get used to feeling pain, it almost seem like something normal, something that everyone is going through, but it's not, you should never get used to the pain, to feeling like that, because even when you think you don't, you deserve to be happy as much as the rest of the world.
It takes time and a lot of work, you are not going to wake up one day feeling like everything is going to be fine, but if you really fight for it, every morning is going to get easier, every morning you are going to feel like you deserve all of this, because you do deserve all the good that comes into your life.
You are going to have to learn how to love yourself again, to believe in what you can do, to recover the strength you had, you have to remind yourself that in order to love others or to succeed you have to work inwards for it to show outwards. Everything starts inside.
It's a long process learning to love, to believe and to succeed, it's tiring and some days it's going to feel like it's not working, like you are stock somewhere in the middle not knowing where to go, but believe me when I say that all of that it's worthy, mostly because you are worthy and deserve all the good in the world.
Don't give up now, don't give up on you, believe a little bit in yourself and you'll see how good everything is, you are more than you are now. Let your light shine through.