February is over, another month has flown by and contrary to what I had believed at the beginning of the month, I haven't had time to relax, yet alone stop, which for most people would be a good thing, but for me, it has been taking my energy and health away.
The month started with a surprise plan from "Chef" to visit "Jolie" at her work, something we had been planning but ran out of time, luckily we both had afternoons off one day and made it happen, it was nice to see them before we all got back to crazy lives and schedules that don't seem to fit together.
But then after that life got even crazier, I started school feeling quite prepared and organized for the work load, but what I didn't anticipated was my school work load, I never realise how much I do and how much I run around town until I get sick and have to stay in bed.
The second week of the month I got sick and not the kind of sick that lets you go to class, I got really sick with watery eyes, stuffy nose and headaches that I couldn't handle, but me being me, I didn't cancel any commitments, I went through with them and used the afternoons to "recover" until the weekend came around and I actually stayed at home.
And then the next week I got sick again, I had a relapse and felt so frustrated to not be able to follow through with my plans and meetings and school like a normal human being, but the worst happened that weekend, my parents and I went out to eat, something about the food was a bit off, we didn't pay attention and the next thing I know is that my tummy is not feeling right.
I was double sick, if that's a term, (or germ Ha,Ha) I got some sort of virus from the food but was so stubborn to not let my mind believe I was actually sick that I didn't do anything until the pain was so strong it was making me dizzy. Only after a long mum-speech I got my medicine and after the fourth day actually started to feel like a normal human being, until I realised I was going down with the flu (again).
School wise everything has been really relaxed if I can say so myself, I feel like I've been a lot more organized and leaving less time to procrastinate, so I don't find myself doing last minute task, but exams are coming up so we will see if it's really going as well as I think or if I need to re-inforce something.
One thing I didn't do during this month was relax, I need to learn how to do it, I've been working out regularly and actually bouncing back into the shape I had pre- Christmas and I like it, yoga has helped, but even when I don't feel stressed or pressured, this long sickness has to be coming from some place and the only thing that has changed has been the amount of work I have.
Overall a good month, filled with love and understanding from family and friends, lots of germs in me, a lot of work but positive minds. Hope you had a great month and remember to keep on dreaming.

The last full week of the month has passed and our time to accomplish all of those goals we set ourselves from the beginning has passed, now it's time to look at what we did, what we didn't do and the things we can improve. This week was not that for me tho.
You never realise how busy you are until you suddenly have to tell someone your to do list just for that day, before that I used to think I was this super organised woman making everything happen and not sweating over pressure, but turns out it's quite the opposite.
I went from having a slow but great start of the week, going through some lose ends from last week and catching up, mostly because exam week is coming and I rather be prepared. But as Wednesday rolled around I discovered that my list was longer than anticipated, my mood was not there, my health was no cooperating and I didn't had enough time.
I feel like I haven't been working hard enough in some projects as I should be, I've been putting resting hours over work hours and that leaves me with even less time to properly rest or even work and that has been compromising my free time and my health too.
There were some good things this week too, I saw "Engineer" and we had a late night Burger King that made me laugh a lot, I had a heart to heart to with my parents about my plans, I even talked with some friends and voiced my recent problems, which doesn't happen as much as it should.
But on the other hand my dad also got sick and I never realised how terrified I was to see either of them sick until I saw him walking through that Emergency door, luckily he's fine, he's recovering and who knows, maybe the next time I write I'll have an adventure to talk about.
Have a great week and remember to keep on dreaming.

Tate Collins meets Miles Archer when she moves in back with her brother, something doesn't feel right as soon as she realises that Miles is the drunk guy outside her new apartment, their relationship has a rocky start but their attraction for each other is undeniable so they come up with an arrangement, a sex arrangement, and as long as she respects Miles' rules they'll be fine.

Promises get broken.

Rules get shattered.

What I liked:

• The backstories: More than telling the story, they are sharing the memories and the way everything felt during those moments, which makes it more enjoyable and understandable. 
• Miles & Tate's connection: It was there and you can feel it as you flip through the pages, you can see how their relationship changes over time.
• The sex: Something I can agree with everyone that read this book, the sex parts were handled right and it a really nice way, there wasn't anything overly dramatic or over the top about them. 

I feel like every month or so I get in this funk of not wanting to do anything but sleep, it usually happens after a few weeks of tough work without stopping or having a proper rest, or even after I recover from sickness or recently had a panic attack or went through something that wasn't pleasant.
The worst part is that you don't have a way of preventing it, one morning you wake up and you feel like even when you have things to do, everything can wait until after your nap or long sleep, and even if you manage to get something done it's almost like a reflex, you do it because you have to.
It even makes you rethink where are you going, why are you working so hard or why aren't you getting "enough" results from the hard work you've been doing and it snowballs into you thinking that maybe you are not enough or at least not good.
And before you know it you are going to be in this terrible mood, not wanting to do anything, wanting to be more but not knowing where to start.
From my experience I've learned that there are two types of "funk, the one that last like three days but after a good nap you feel good to go or the one that takes a little bit more to get through, this is the kind we struggle the most out of the two.
Unfortunately there's no special recipe to get over this, it all depends of you and what you do, if you are creative, going for a walk or visiting new museums may help, if you are an athlete, doing something new in your routine may help, if you are a student, changing study places may work, but it all depends on what you are used to doing.
One thing I would say helps, it's changing something in your routine, sometimes you get in a funk because everything gets repetitive or because you feel like something is lacking, it's a way you mind tells you "you need to do something new".
There are the little things that count, but in case everything fails, call someone, ask for help, being in a funk is not nice, you don't feel like yourself, but at the end, just like everything, it has a solution and you shouldn't feel discouraged.

I don't know where I stand this week, everything has been all over the place and I somehow managed to feel utterly pressured and stressed but happy at the same time, there's has been a lot going on with school, work and overall life.

Sydney thought she had the perfect life, working on the library, living with her best friend and having a healthy relationship with her boyfriend, but not everything is as it seems. The night she loses her job, she also finds out that her boyfriend has been cheating on her with her best friend. But Ridge, the musician living above her building takes her in when she needs it the most. Who knows what would happen between them, maybe someday...

It's not a desert and it doesn't has any lions, it's a forest on the outsides of the city, a place to relax, cycle, walk, run or just spend time with family, which is what we do when we need a little break from the city and it's craziness.










We've been going to this place since I was a little girl, my mum used to come with her father as he worked in the gardens of this convent. It has become the place we go to when we feel a bit clustered and in the need of a break but don't have enough time to go somewhere else.
It has become one of our favourite places to go and spend time as a family.

Have you ever been in love? They say it's the most amazing feeling in the world, that nothing can top it off and when you ask how does it feels like? They are going to say that there's no way of describing it, you have to feel it to know why it's so amazing.

No matter what happens, you know they are going to be there, no matter how bad you feel, you know they are going to have your back, no matter how lonely you feel when they are apart, you know they are always going to be right there for you.
When you are little they come as a bunch, no one cares about who you are, what you have to give or who your parents are, communication comes easy and even when you don't say much, if you find your true buddy in there, you may be settled for life.
As we grow and life gets harder, finding people you can connect with becomes more a task than something that's just meant to come, people realise more about you and who you are, they begin to judge a book by it's cover, but even then, there are people that find their way into your life.
But then you discover that there are two types of friendship, the ones that are real with you, that are going to be there even when you talk every three months or the ones that are just there to pick up what's to give and move on, without you.
Finding friends is hard, keeping in touch as life gets crazier is too, but once you've found those true friends, everything just comes, everything seems easy around them, even when you don't seem to talk as much as you used to, the connection stays there forever and that's when you know it's real.
Stay with the ones that are pushing you forward, with the ones that encourage you to be the best you can, to the ones that answers your calls when you need it the most, with the ones that are going to support you through rough times. And remember that you have to give as much as you receive, because you never know when they may need you.

If you were to ask me how my week went, I would probably say that it was a bad one, not because something bad happened but because I got sick and not even slightly sick but really sick, the kind of sick that gets you to be sent home for how bad you look.
Monday was a day off from everything, it was a bank holiday and I truly used it for that, I didn't do a thing related to work or anything else, but to spend time with my family and just relax, it's not usual that we get those days to not do anything.
Tuesday a stay at home day, I didn't do much but clean my room and put things where they belonged.
Wednesday was probably the most productive day out of all of them, I went to class, got there early (for the first time since the semester begun), went to a coffee shop to work for about 3 full hours without distractions, caught up in all the papers I was supposed to hand on Saturday, wrote like three posts and then I went to my social service hours. I was shattered by the end of the day but it was worthy.
Thursday is when everything started going downhill, I knew it from the moment I got up, I've had high fever during the night, but the stuffy nose, red eyes and aching body told me that my suspicions were real, I was coming down with something and it was not going to be nice. But just my luck, I couldn't go home, I had a meeting scheduled for that day and it was all or nothing right there.
Friday was even worst, I woke up, took a shower and faced the day, let me tell you, facing the day when you are sick is never a good idea. By four I was feeling terrible, breaking down and the only thing in my mind was my bed, but I had paperwork and a meeting for that afternoon. The rest of the afternoon was spent between chinese food and hamburgers at the pure Gilmore Girls' style.
And now Saturday (which I don't tend to include) I feel a little bit more human but I still feel like crap, I don't know where all of this sickness is coming from, I'm not one to be sick all the time but when it indeed happens I feel like the world is crumbling down, I hope that I can start the week feeling better and less stuffy and swollen. All I seem to have in the agenda for today is work and homework, so I better hurry if I really want to have a few nap hours.
Hope you had a better week than this, this week I'm actually playing a little bit with all Valentine's Day themes, have a great week and keep on dreaming.

Have you ever heard about self-centered men that are actually considerate to the female population? Me either, but Spencer is a one of a kind, he cares, he knows what he likes and knows what he has. Publicly known as a womanizer or a playboy by the NYC community, he comes into trouble when his parent tell him it's time to cool off while he makes business with a conservative family.
But what happens when the only woman you seem to rely on it's you best friend? A commitment may make their friendship more interesting for both of them.
What I liked:

• The language: There is such thing as censoring yourself when writing a book, but for me it was really well managed in this book, Spencer is open and talks about his penis like any other men would, he accepts who he is and what he does. Also Charlotte is really open and really honest, she's not a broken soul, she knows what she wants. 
• The characters: They are honest and talk like two grown ups, they are in their 20 something and they are reliable and not that cheesy. 
• The plot: It was somehow predictable in some parts, but it was really light, without too much drama and without too much interference of others, it all kinda goes with them and their story. 
• Spencer: As a character, he talks like a dude from his age, he likes to play but at the same time knows about his dreams and how to accomplish them.

Isn't it fun how we go months without talking and yet every time we see each other it's like we were never apart?
We've been there, through the good and the bad, we became close over the pain, we held hands and gave support when the air changed and took everyone away.
Then the time to leave came, taking separates ways was the best for us, for our interests, for our dreams and even then we knew, we knew that no matter what happened, we were going to be around for one and other in those times of need.
Life came and went, became repetitive, changed, made us better, brighter, bigger and responsible, adulthood came to chase us, because unlike what we wanted to believe, there was no escape, just one way to get to that dream and adulthood was in the middle of that road.
We broke apart or at least our roads did, there was a certain pain in that, knowing that we weren't going be together anymore made me realise how many people left without leaving visible trail in my soul, but with you, it was all different.
The messages, the contact brought us closer, those night calls you never missed, no matter if you were alone or with good company and something inside melted, because it was right there when I realised that our friendship of many years, of many up's and down's made us stronger together.
And today when I see you again I feel it, that conexion, the way we seem to be connected even when we are apart, the way we seem to talk about everything, the way we seem to feel like we belong, without awkwardness, without silence.
It's all like it used to be, the only difference is in us, in our souls and the way our wounds seemed to have healed, in the way we seemed to have grown up but still manage to be the same person after all this years.
We did it right, at least in this friendship, because even when we are old friends, everything seems brand new.

Last week I went to an interview, one of the questions stock with me: If you could go back and be able to change one thing what would it be and what would you do?
For a lot of people that would be easier to answer: I would go back to school and actually enter my classes", "I would go after him/her/ and hold him/her forever". But would you really want to go and do that, even if that means losing everything you have now or changing who you've become and everything you've done to get here?
There are different answers for different people, some would like to change everything because they may think it was better the way it was before, some wouldn't because they like where they are know and that's not a bad thing, as I said, for every person it's different.
But think about it in this way, it's easy to look back, to see how much you failed, to see the pain and try to heal it, but it really takes a lot of strength to learn how to get up after that fight, to let the wounds heal, to look into the future and actually try something new or plan something different.
My answer? I wouldn't change a thing, it took me a long time to let those wounds heal and in that time I actually learned a lot about myself, my anxiety, about who I was and who I want to become and you never really know what would happen if you keep moving forward unless you try it.
Our pasts are there, we can't escape them, we can't change them, but you can either learn from them or be tortured by everything you did.

Have you seen those movies in which the main character is running around town trying to get everything done before time runs out? That was me this week, I was a complete and utter mess for the duration of it, but there were also some pretty awesome stuff that happened during this period.
It was back to school week for me and I have to say, I wasn't as excited to go back as I first imagined, mostly because I can't seem to figure out how to do 6 a.m. and look like a human, not a tired thing that seems to always be cold, but once I got passed the first shock it was actually pretty nice to go back to those hallways that have seen me grow.
I'm also doing something pretty exciting for one of my aunties, I can't say what but it involves a lot of paperwork and adulting, so I had to spend half of the week signing paperwork, calling people and in an office.
Tuesday was a family day in the hospital, I seem to be de declared woman to accompany loved ones to the hospital when they need it or as it was in this case, for a check-up, by the end it had all turned to be a family reunion hosted by me, I was really impressed by how well it went.
Wednesday was the day of my exam, I don't know if you remember, but one of my main goals was to finally finish studying English to get my certificate, well in past exams I had actually done a pretty bad job, one time I actually had a panic attack during the interview, but this time I was ready and actually got one of my highest scores yet.
Thursday was an interesting day, for me it was going to be a day to relax after one class, but I actually ended up walking, talking and catching up with "Chef" and "Jolie", it was our last chance before we fully go back and out schedules mess up everything again.
Friday was relaxed, I actually managed to send all my work before the weekend and caught up in all my work, it feels nice to accomplish all of this, even if some of the work got finished a day later, it got done before the weekend and that's all that matters to me. I'm feeling really tired but happy.
I also managed to work out 5 days of the week, it has been a long time since that happened and I'm starting to feel pretty good with myself again. I'm really motivated and ready for everything that's to come, I promise to fight harder and be better, to post more on social media and invite you to become part of the family, I hope you had a good week, in case you didn't, remember that every day is a new start and you can do whatever you can. Remember to keep on dreaming.

Amber is broken, her life came crumbling down after she suffered an attack, she never recover and even her parents didn't know how to treat her. In a desperate call for normality she decides to move in with her brother, Brian, who she barely sees and knows since the attack, but when she walks in and founds that he's not living alone, her luck begins to change.
Zach's a womaniser with a broken past and a bad image from their parents' luck, when Brian described Amber as broken, he imagined something else, someone different, but as soon as he sets eyes on her, he knows, she's not meant to be broken and he may be able to help even if that means changing his old modus operandi.
They both know that this one is a risky bet, one in which not only broken hearts are in stake, but more a lot more, maybe they are ready to be pushed to the edge.
What I liked:

• The plot: Talking about assault is not easy and that for, it's not really talked about in the community, but it was handled in a really sensible way and it showed how a victim gets to live with those scars for the rest of their lives. 
• Amber, as a character was really interesting, I really liked knowing what was going through her head as her life began to change, her thoughts and how she reacted to everything around her. 

Welcome back old friend, you surely have been missed and needed. This is my little section to show you the little things that made me happy this month, but also things I feel grateful for, and because sometimes words aren't enough, we are doing it with pictures.







Some of this pictures are really different of what I'm used to doing, but it was quite fun to take them and some of them have a story behind them, like the little socks, they represent the two new babies that came to live and how they have changed me.
There's a lot this month and I'm truly grateful of being able to share this with the people that surround me and you, my fellow reader.

It's the first day of the month and we all know what that means, it's time to share the new resolutions and the new things I would want to be focusing on this month and hopefully this time, everything is going to go through and I won't be having any problems following them up.
Not much is going to be happen, not that I know yet anyway, and it's mostly because I really want to focus on myself and school, because I just started this semester and I really want everything to go as smooth as possible, I want my grades to improve and I want to take care of myself.
Personal Goals. 

• Read 10 books
• Work out 4 times a week
• Save money
• Eat clean
• Stick to my schedules
• Work on my routine