Archive for November 2016

December: The Wishes

December is just around the corner and that can only mean one thing, roll the holiday stress. December...

November: The Review

Oh sweet and cold November, you let the temperature drop this year as soon as October finished and...

WR| Not Good Enough

This is the last entry I'm writing before the big reveal, I've pre-written and pre-scheduled everything for this...

Five Readings For Winter

Winter and Christmas are just around the corner and there's no way you are going to spend the...

November: The Little Things

Every month I like to look back and see what little things made me happy, or things that...

What We Were

I don't know how to explain it, I just know I have to get it out of my...

Old Buddies

I don't consider myself an introvert, but my anxiety has pushed me to be more timid, more shy...

WR| Discipline

When motivation fails, discipline will keep you going. When you work hard on keeping your motivation up, it's...

Of the Bookshelf| Wasted Words

Cam Emerson believes that everyone has someone perfect for them, she's a matchmaker, she loves pairing people when...

CityScapes| Coyoacan

Do you remember those days when you used to miss class and go to certain part of the...

MT| Frustration

Yesterday was quite an unusual day as I ran into two men that I care about and I...

MT| Mental Block

Here's a reality, I wrote everything for this week, but hated it so much that I decided it...

WR| Mixed Feelings

There's so much to say and so little time, sometimes I wish I could stop and enjoy the...

Of the Bookshelf| The Wall of Winnipeg and Me

By Mariana Zapata Aiden "The Wall of Winnipeg" Graves, the top defensive end in the NFL, has a...

PD| Cuernavaca

Last month I was in a down place and one morning I decided to get out of the...

No Means No

No means no That's something I've always remind my friends, no matter if it's your boyfriend, fiancée, husband...

Back into a Routine

Balancing life is pretty hard, mostly because it's something you have to learn how to do on your...

Sometimes things happen and you can't do anything about it, you cannot change the world on your own, you cannot make people believe in other things, you can support them through pain, you can stand there, you can push forward, you can always keep trying.
Lately I haven't been feeling like myself, I've been in the loop or "funk" in which I doubt myself more than ever, I don't go out as much, I retrieve my feelings to not worry anyone and I haven't been handling life that well, it has been a hard couple of weeks.
Family issues affect me, but also some things that go under all of that, I've been having some issues with some of my friends and it's always hard to go through them, because if you've known them for a while, having a fight or a disagreement can affect you and your mood more than you think.
But I tried to keep myself busy during those times, I don't know if it was a way of blocking all the pain, or if I was really busy during those moments, but I didn't stop, I kept going and pushing everything that could've affected me out of the way, and then the break happened and it was like everything started to sink in, my life was a mess, some friendships were falling apart, my family was going through a bump, what the hell am I supposed to do?
A part of me wanted to give up, I've been through this way too many times, why keep fighting? it almost seems like it suppose to happen, like bad moments are here to stay, but there's always that little thing I hold on to, a pinch of light on those rainy days and I know that even when life it's bad, it can only get better from there.
I'm not a positive person most of the time, one because I think that's unreal, life happens and sometimes it brings sad times, two because I tend to overreact and make things bigger than they are, but even when I'm not being positive, I know there's something out there, happiness waiting for me, I just have to get there.
Being in a "funk" is not fun (That rhymed!), but most of the times is up to you to say how long you want to be in there for, you can try things by yourself or you can ask for help, the most important thing is that you feel comfortable with whatever you choose and go through it, at the beginning it may seem hard or not worthy, but hold on to it, it will get better.

Mayte.