January was quite the month, not only did I started the year more busy than ever, but also more motivated than ever, which was a surprise if you look back to other year and how much I really got done in the first two months of the year.
One thing I knew for sure was that I really wanted to up my game in every aspect of my life and let myself feel a lot more, leave bad feelings behind, work hard for those dreams I've been pursuing in the past three years, but also work on myself, I want to become that person I would feel proud of.
For this start of the year I had a job, which was new, I've always had this philosophy in which the winter break was for me to rest and not take any projects in my hands, but when I heard about this one, I said yes, it was something new, something I wasn't quite sure how it would go, but one in which I was going to learn something new.
Unfortunately for both parts, I already had some commitments in line, so I was only able to collaborate with them on certain dates and certain hours, but even with that, I'm really happy with everything that was brought to the table in this month and everyone I got the chance to met and work with.
During that time I actually had to ask for a few days due to my cousin and her baby, because one night my mum got a call, she was in labour and it was a complicated birth for both sides, my aunt and her were pretty much alone and without help there, so me being me, I proposed as the victim to go with them and help.
That was my first flight on my own and I won't lie, I was nervous and a bit nostalgic, when my dad said goodbye to me right before I went through security, I got a bit emotional but did not cry. Everything from there went quite smooth, no trouble at secure, no trouble with the guy sitting next to me and more importantly, no problem with the take off.
I went there, met the little girl that made me carry a newborn for the first time and also made me gave her her bottle, it was quite an experience, one that I thought would happen in many many years. It really melts your heart to carry one of those little ones and calm them when they are crying.
Once I got back I was shattered, after 4 days of barely sleeping and barely eating, my body was going straight from tiredness to exhaustion, so I took a week off of everything and focused on myself, I relaxed and stayed in bed, but towards the end of the week, my mood was really bad and cranky.
And then the month was almost over, so I decided that seeing my friends was probably the best option to set my feet back on the ground and not feel so bad about myself and I have to say, I never realise how much I miss them until I see them again and see how much they have changed or the person they have become, it was nice to set this week aside to enjoy it with others.
After a little break, I'm back and let me tell you, there's nothing that a good work out, a good sleep and letting your mind wander freely can't do. I feel more motivated, more happy and more in-sync with everything that I'm doing right now, I feel like I can finally put my soul in everything I do and feel happy about it.
It was quite the month for first times and I feel excited for everything that's to come.

Everything happens for a reason or at least that's what we want to believe, but the reality is that sometimes life is just too much and taking a step back can really help you to realise where you are standing and what you can do to keep moving forward.
This break was not premeditated, I remember Friday and I was in a grumpy, horrible mood, taking my frustration out on my mum who had nothing to do with my tiredness or complete lack of organization, I re-read what I had written that week and I was so mad at myself, because not only were they really bad, but it was almost like another person wrote them. That's why I decided to unwind.
This was the week for me to reconnect with myself (the real one, not the one that's bitching around), my family and friends, a lot happened but it would be better if I explained it day by day.
Monday was my last day at work, I was done and even though it was a really nice space, it wasn't meant to be forever and I was quite excited for my next step and this semester that's about to start.
Tuesday was when things began to shine up, I went out for sushi with "Chef" and "Jolie", a girls evening was needed and I laughed so much, that my tummy muscles ached that night. It made me realise how much I miss them even when we try to talk a lot through messages, there's a lot we miss and catching up with them and laughing at the embarrassing things we do, never gets old.
Wednesday was a double day, I actually went to meet "Peanut" the new member of "Artiste's" family, it's a precious little boy, we talked and it felt like old times, I really missed her and I hope there's more for us ahead. Then, I ran to be with my number one man "Stranger", who's the only one I can count on when I need someone to listen to me at 3 a.m. while I have a meltdown in another city.
Sometimes the situations doesn't allow us to be as connected as I would want to, but that doesn't mean I don't love and care for those weirdos I call my friends, they are the ones holding my hand and pushing me to do those really stupid things I love.
Thursday was a day for Gilmore Girls and me, I'm almost done with it and it was really nice to have a little bit of a break in the middle of the week to do nothing, even when I planned to do a lot of housework, I wouldn't do it as often, even if I could, but it was really nice to not leave the bed all day.
Friday was more active, I cleaned, I wrote a lot, I caught up with YT videos and left the house for a beautiful lunch with my mum and her sister, which I also missed, there are times in which we see each other about 5 times a month and others, like this one, in which everything becomes sporadic and not so much fun.
I also had the chance to see my family on the previous weekend and even though it's sad to see my aunts start to lose their memories, I was reminded that I had really precious moments around them and those are the ones that have to stick to me.
It was an interesting week, I got to reconnect with others and myself, and it will always be nice to remember where do you come from, it settles you down and makes you realise that even when you are tired, the fight is not over and there's a lot to win.
Have a great week, end of the month, beginning of the month and remember to keep on dreaming.

• The plot: This story is not centered in high school sweethearts, or how they found love in each other, this story is about moving on from that first love after something happens, it's not about flowers and heart, but how love can help heal past pain. 
• The characters: They have their own personality and don't change even when they get together, they stay true to who they are and are not afraid to let their personality shine through. 
• The acceptance and help: It touches sensitive subjects but in a mature way, it's not about the person that it's sick, it's about how it affects the others and can change their lives if they don't do something. 

Last night I was thinking on how much my life has changed lately, every aspect of it has been up for something new or even some improvements, and it has taken a lot of work to get here and to stay in this place in which I feel happy and motivated, but I can't help to think how life was about three years ago.

Every night, before you go to sleep, you think how much of a mess your room is, how much you could've done, if only you had the opportunity or the energy to push it that bit forward or even that little bit of extra time to do it, but sometimes you can only think of those moments of peace you are going to be spending in your home.

There are a lot of first times we don't remember, our first walk, our first word, our first laugh, our first cry and many more, but there are also a lot of first times we get to live and remember and can make memorable.
Today, as I'm writing this, I'm living so many first times that I'm having a rough time keeping up with  them, but let's go back to how this week was, because unless I start from the beginning, you won't be able to understand.
I knew this week was going to be rough one because not only did I had work to do, but meetings to go to and work due in certain dates, so before the craziness started, I pre-planned and scheduled everything to make sure, everything was going to fit and work out on time, but little did I know that not only did my plans wouldn't go through but I was going to have to leave the comfort of my home.
On Wednesday, we woke up to the news that my cousin was in labour, but she had been having complications and both lives were in danger, she lives about 5 hours (by bus) away from me and the rest of my family, so everyone freaked out at the thought of her and her mum having to deal with everything on their own. Luckily, my boss was understanding and let me absent myself for a few days. so I was going in representation of all of them.
Don't get me wrong, I've travelled solo before, but this time was different because I've never flown by myself. My mum was always the organiser, the one telling me what to do and when, so when she told me I was going to be going by myself, I had a little freak out on my own.
I went back to pack everything and prepared myself for something new, after all it's one of my resolutions. Controlling my anxiety was another thing that was keeping me busy, I was shaking and mumbling things before boarding my flight, which only made it worst, but not only did I manage to get through security but to reach my destination.
I met the baby, she's a healthy, chubby sweetheart that stole my heart, I carried her, gave her her bottle, rocked her to sleep and managed to keep her safe while the other worked or rested, all of this without knowing a thing about babies before hand, I have to say, I'm quite impressed with myself.
Now, I'm in bed, half awake, really tired, with an upset tummy and not much energy left, being 2 am in the morning and having to wake up early to manage to catch my flight, I don't know how this week is going to go, I just hope I can get some rest or at least not faint in the process of trying to survive another day.
Have a great start of the week, don't let anything, not even tiredness stop you and remember to keep on dreaming.

Fallon knows pain, you can see it in her, she's ready to move on, to become someone on her own and make the next big step in her life, but it's not always as easy, just hours before boarding a plane that would be taking her across the country to her new life, she meets Ben and even though she doesn't know much about him, she's going to met him, the man that may change her life forever.
Ben is a writer with hopes and dreams, but don't let that good kid image fool you, he has secrets, a dark past that he can't let go until the truth is exposed, no one knows who they are, no one knows what's going to happen, the only thing they have it's a date and a place to meet back again.

What I liked:

• The illusion: You barely know about the characters, you barely know what's going to happen and that let's you create an illusion of who they are, what have they done and every time you turn that page you get to know if you were right or not. 
• The plot twist: I know that for a lot of people this wasn't a surprise but for me, the way they changed the story plot multiple times made me enjoy it more and more, it made me get hooked on with the characters and want to read more and more. 

Since then I've been going back constantly, every time I want to escape the city or I'm feeling overwhelmed, I try to go and walk it off. It's truly an awesome part of town, and even when it's still an active part of town, you cannot feel the rush or the stress of it, everyone seems to be relaxed and quiet in there.
This was the place where I scaped multiple times in the past, this is my place and will be for a long time.

Through my working days, I've discovered that not only does being the new girl affects the position you are going to be in, but also the image people are going to have of you because no matter how hard you've work to get there, people are always going to be quick to judge.
I've been in many different jobs, some of which have fulfilled my expectations, some haven't, but in everyone of them, I've learned something different and new that takes me out of my comfort zone bringing me to feel more confident everytime I change jobs.
I just turned 21 and I don't look old (if I can say so myself) and that has lead people to think that just because I'm younger than them, I don't deserve a chance or I'm not smart enough, just because of my image, and don't let me get started on how they've judged me basing on purely my genre.
Time after time, I've showed that not only am I capable of performing well on each one of those jobs, but that I also can bring new ideas to the table and accept when I make mistakes, half of the time they won't listen to me, the other half they might consider it and after a few thinkings, they realised it may work.
I'm not trying to put myself in a pedestal by saying any of this but to bring young hope to you, I've been the new girl, the "unexperienced" one, or even the dumb one and I know how it feels to be maken less, to sit in that spot day after day and think that this job may not be what you expected, or even giving up after a few days because people gave you a hard time.
What I'm trying to say it's that you deserve to give as much as a fair chance to the job as everyone should do with you, at the end we are all on the same boat trying to push forward, if people don't see it that way, you don't have to deal with them, give your best. If after a couple of weeks the job still doesn't feel right, then it may never and it may be for the best if you moved on, but at least you know and you tried it.
Don't give up on your dream job just because someone's making it hard for you, if it's your truly dream job, go for it and remember that they are the ones putting all of that energy into giving you a hard time.

One of the questions that pops out a lot from friends and sometimes even family it's how I manage my schedule and how I stay up to day and organised, most of the time I don't have a clear answer because it took me awhile to understand what was going to work for me, but most of the time I recommend starting with the basics, looking for tips and working your way from there.

This was my first week back going back to work and I feel like it's safe to say that I'm not feeling fresh or even feeling cheerie, but I do feel happy to go back to both my jobs and do what I did all of last year, run around.

Oh new year, such a lovely time of the year, this is the time to make new resolutions and start doing more of what we love, which in my case it's reading, I want to take time to read even more than past years, it's something that I trully enjoy and makes me utterly happy and relaxed.
For this year I won't be sharing my reading goal, because I found that it changes as soon as I reach the original one, but in compensation to that, I decided to share 5 books that I will definitely be reading at some point this year.
All the Light We Cannot See by Anthony Dooer
It has been in my list for a really long time, but I either haven't found the time or when I was about to buy it, something else caught my attention, I won't be paying attention to any of that anymore and I'll bite the bullet.
The Disreputable History of Frankie Landau-Banks by E.Lockhart
I've read very little of her work but what I've read really intrigues me, to be honest I'd forgotten this book was on my list, but once I saw it I remember why was it there, the title it's quite catching.
I'll be there by Holly Golberg Sloan
I love this kind of books you can fall in love with without knowing even how it happen, the cover calls me every time I see it and I'll be honest, I'm missing this sort of books in my life.
Alive by Scott Sigler
Have you ever had one book that pops everytime you turn around? This has been doing that for quite a while, but for some reason other than the cover I haven't been drawned to it, maybe I just have to push it in and see how it goes down.
Every Last Word by Tamara Ireland Stone
This book contains a touchy subject for me, one that I avoided for too long until I started to immerce myself a toe at the time, but now I'm really curious to how they are going to portay it and use this in a nice way.
Those are my picks for 2017, of course they are going to be a lot more, most of them are going to be found in weird sale shops, some may be good, some may be bad, but I shall be enjoying both of them, because that what reading is about.

When I was trying to come up with a theme for this post, I was having a lot of trouble, surprisingly I had nothing, not any idea, apparently spending more than three days with my family drains my creativity and puts me in relaxation mode, which is good, I was supposed to feel like that all week, I was supposed to have a break, but as I'm slowly becoming a workaholic, that idea was nuts.
Anyway, I had nothing, but all I could keep thinking was so much I wanted to accomplish this year and how excited I was to start so many different projects and ideas that have been rumbling in my head, so as everyone is in changing mode, I decided to write a little something that has been making me crazier than ever.
Every year I set myself for the stars, I always set all of this unrealistic resolutions that I'm never able to get through, because let's be honest, half of the time I have no time stability and that makes it really hard to stick to a plan and that's why I always end up sticking with small morning and night routines that may not affect my schedule.
But this year I want to go big, I want to do all I've ever wanted, even if that means sleeping less than my usual 8 hours, or investing my weekends into that, or watching less Gilmore Girls. I'm not going big in the sense of how many things I want to accomplish, but how many hours and how much of my focus I want to be putting towards that goal.
I'm not hearing any comments from other people, I'm not using my past as my own weapon, this year I want to look forward and not give myself headaches because no matter how much I try, I cannot change my past or all the awful things I've done and even if I could, I wouldn't, I've through a lot and that has taught me even more than I ever imagined.
This is a new chapter, a new page on my book and I want it to be special and nice, I want to go out, see the world, be a good friend, work on some amazing projects and taking the opportunities that come my way, because they are worthy and exciting.
I hope this year tops others and I finally start becoming that person that would make myself proud in about 40 years, it is going to be hard and not as fun, but amazing.
Have a great start and keep on dreaming.

Making resolutions and setting myself goals has become one of my favourite activities, if you are familiar with myself, you may know that I do this every month, but I like to set the really good ones at the beginning of the year to work on them through the months. 

I'm not writing this a day before uploading it as I usual would, one because I'm on holiday, regaining strength and number two, because as much as I would want to write this in the day, the idea just flew into my mind and there's no way I'm wasting that opportunity and not writing it down.
The time for changes is ahead of us, everything around us makes us feel motivated to become better and brighter, but the truth here, it's that most than half of the time we let them slip  and slide out of our control before half of the year is even approaching, I've myself done that.
But I'm here to give you hope and encourage you to make the big change you've been wanting to make.
It's true that some years are better than others, some seem to have more surprises, some may have more love or stability, but no matter which one is your case, it's important to alway remember that there's only one way once you've fallen down and that's going up. It doesn't matter how long it takes for you to get where you want as long as you keep fighting.
If you are feeling unmotivated, try sticking with a routine, practice your discipline, it's about pushing forward, even when you don't feel like it, not meaning that you can't have any breaks, you need them and they will help you regain strength and creativity, as long as you don't use them as excuses to not get anywhere.
No matter what happens, how everything goes, remember to always keep hope inside your heart and keep on dreaming, that's the only way you are going to be able to keep on going and getting better.
Life is not perfect and that what makes it even more special and unique, help others and be the person that will make your older self proud of.
Have a great day, night, week, month and year.