August was a great month, I was lucky enough to be involved in a lot of activities and I will forever be grateful with my boss for giving me such an amazing opportunity, but now that that part of my life is over, I have to move on and keep growing.

August was really different compared to other months, I had a lot going on from beginning to end, so much that I hardly posted anything here and the things I indeed put up were not my best work and I still resent that, I hate putting things up and not feeling happy with them, if you are really putting the effort to read it, I should put my effort to write it.
I blame it on the circumstances when I know it was my fault, time management hasn't been my forte this summer and beginning of semester, I've been all over the place trying to figure out what the hell do I want to do next, I'm adjusting to college life again and it's been hard.
As you know I worked in a Summer Course for a month and a half, it was my dream job, I was an administrative assistant and I had full on contact with teachers and kids. It involved many of my favourite things, from organisation, to play, to kids, to even sports, it was a fun job but also a really consuming one, I lost almost all my day in there, even when it was a 9 to 3 job, but I'm not complaining or making excuses, as I said, at the end it was my fault, my lack of time management left me with no time for anything.
Then, before I knew it the summer was ending and with that I knew that I was going to have to say goodbye to a wonderful family that received me with open arms, helped me and supported me through the whole process, the thing was that I hate saying goodbye, I don't know how to do it, when to do it or even how not to make the other person feel miserable, because a part of me knew that this goodbye may be a definitive one, I don't know if I'm ever coming back, so I built a wall around me, I didn't let anyone in, I started to close in my little nutshell and people started to think that I was being rude, when in reality I didn't wanted to hurt anyone nor myself.
Then the last day, I did what I always do, I ran away, I said goodbye to a handful of people and left the building with nothing but pain on my chest and a bit of regret, I know that what I did was terribly wrong, believe me I know, but a part of me also knows that it was for the best, I didn't wanted to upset anyone and I also didn't wanted to make promises that I couldn't keep, such as promising to come back next year.
With that out of my life, I knew I need to figure out what was going to be my next step, I knew I had to go back to school, but was I going to join a sports team, or even hit the gym? was I going to make any changes in m life?
Unfortunately, I only had one weekend before school started for me, I had to sit down and think quick, there was no way I was going to miss school, but a part of me justa wanted to sit down and feel sorry for myself, so I did what I always do in this cases, I took days to let my mind rest, I didn't di anything major, I didn't even stick to a routine and let me tell you how big of a mess my life was at the end of those few days.
What made it a bit worst was the fact that I didn't even had a friend to complain to, "Chef" was in Europe, "Stranger" was "busy" (Which is his code for "new girl"), "Editor" had it's own battles and I didn't wanted to confuse him more and the list goes on and on, so the last weekend of the month I just exploded, I was an angry and sensitive person that would explode at anyone for anything, luckily everyone came back to normal that weekend and I took all my pain out with them.
And that's where I am right now, I'm still figuring out what to do and how to do it, it's been a whole process but I think I'm finally coming to terms with that, I know I really want to do a lot of things, it's just that I haven't been 100% into anything that weren't the summer course or sleeping.
It was a good month, filled with lessons and good people around me, the ones that worry me a bit are my parents, they put a lot of pressure in themselves, now I'm the one that worries about them, but as with everything, I know everything will fall eventually into place.
Hope you had an amazing month and remember to keep on dreaming.

I've considered myself a lot of things but never lazy or not with those words, and this isn't because I think I'm perfect or because I think I can do everything and be ultra productive every day, I wish I was, but because I'm becoming a true believer that even if you do only thing, you are doing something either for yourself or others.
This week was a weird one for me, unlike any other weeks, I didn't had anything major planned, like anything, no visits, no meetings, nothing, and a part of me was grateful for this, I mean, when was the last time this happened? But there was this other part that was seriously starting to freak out, I didn't knew what to do, I knew I had to sit down and work, but what else was I supposed to do? And that's when the problem started.
Monday was a semi productive day, all I wanted was to go back home and sleep, but I actually went out and ran my errands, all in one day, which was a huge mistake taking in consideration that I had free time this week, I even went to the dentist, I'm getting the brace in tomorrow and I'm feeling nervous, anxious and I'm starting to regret all of this.
Tuesday was when everything went downhill, as I didn't had much to do I started to feel quite unmotivated and even sad, I was in one of those moods were you just want to sit down, eat your weight in junk food and catch up on the series you've been watching for a while and that's what I did.
I swear I had plans to be productive on Wednesday and Thursday but they all failed miserably, I was not in the mood, I was tires, moody and really sensitive, I actually had a few fights with my parents over the tiniest things, like the fact that someone ate my cheese, as much as I love my cheese and hate that someone else eats it, I had no right to start that fight.
Friday was the day were I finally did something, "Entrepreneur" actually went to visit me to my school which was the highlight of my week, my mum was actually home sick so I wanted to spend extra time out so we wouldn't crash and fight, and it was lovely seeing a friend I'll always miss, he's like a little kid that understands me and he makes me laugh, he's the brother I would never want to have, but then after that, all my plans to do anything failed as I gave myself a free pass for the rest of that afternoon.
And here I am now, trying to not think of my dentist appointment for this Monday, pre-planning my month, trying to figure out a way to motivate me and trying to put my life back together, but we we'll see how that goes, have a great week and remember to keep on dreaming.

By Jennifer Niven, it's a book about two people that are going through inside battles, both with past and secrets they can't keep up with, people know who they are but they don't know how much they are hiding and how big the battle inside of them is.

I didn't took as much pictures as I would have wanted, at the end, I was working, but I can tell you that I'm incredibly happy and have amazing memories from those hours, this time, I'm happy that I said yes, because I got to live this amazing experience and I wouldn't change it for anything in the world.
P.S. The images are not it's usual quality because of light problems, as soon as it gets dark, you can't get high quality pictures and the focus messes up, but I still wanted to share this bits with you, hope you like them as much as I did, they mean a lot to me.

We haven't talked in so long, I don't even remember what was the last thing I told you, but I do remember the last time I saw you, I was feeling extremely anxious over the whole thing because something just didn't feel right, there's was something that was making me doubt whether if you and I were still friends.

For a long time I've been working on myself, on my grades, on my exterior self, I haven't been taking risks, I've been keeping everything pretty safe and just being a person that at heart, I know I'm not like, but talking with "Chef" she gave that last push I needed to take a look into my life and realise that not everything is work and grades, maybe I do need a bit of an adrenaline rush in my life from time to time.
But I'm also aware that as much fun as this sounds, not for everyone is as easy as we think, not for everyone is as easy to say yes and take a risk, it takes time and a lot of effort, but here are something that have been working for me:
Try new things, instead of going for your usual things, try something new, a new dish, a new type of food, a different path on your way home, it doesn't matter how big or small it is or how much you either love it or hate it, what matters is that you start taking little steps out of your comfort zone.Be spontaneous.
Have partners in crime, I'm lucky enough to have a few friends that love doing crazy things like me, surround yourself with positive minds that are going to lead you to be more adventurous, but this doesn't mean that you have to surround yourself with  dangerous people, just people that like to be more open and that are willing to be out of their comfort zone.
Remember that you only get one life, you don't get second chances, make a list of everything you want to do, make your wishes come true, fight for them, we are only here for a minimal period of time, take advantage of it.
Take new opportunities, sometimes those little opportunities have more than what you see, even the smallest ones can bring you joy and some bigger opportunities that can lead you to more adventures, never say no to an opportunity because you think is not big enough for you.
Say yes, we like to say no to things we don't know about, we are afraid of what may happen if we say yes, take some risks, say yes instead of saying no out of fear, find new chances by doing this.
Find a balance, not everything is work and not everything is adventures, you may have months filled with adventures and new things, you may have down months and that's okay, as much as we would want to have everything, we need to find a balance and have a bit of everything, so find a time to work and a time to be adventurous, never leave something undone because you were doing something else, make the most of your time.
Take care of yourself, to be able to do all the above you need to be in good condition, don't take short cuts and leave your health behind, without health you don't have anything, listen to your body, if it asks you to have some down town, have it, if it asks you to not eat something. listen to it, if something doesn't feel right, go to your doctor, but never leave your health for later. If you don't take care of yourself, no one is going to do it.
This is not by any means a method, this are just a few things that have been taking me out of my comfort zone and have been making me more open to what's to come, I'm more open to saying yes now, although I'm still finding a balance, as always.

New week, new semester, new classes. new computer, it's worth saying that a few things have been changing around here, most of which I haven't talked much about, but let's catch up.
As you know, I just finished my work period and I just came back to school for a new semester, I had one weekend to relax and refresh, that it wasn't enough to be honest, my body had been under a bunch of pressure, stress and I did a lot more of physical activity that I have done in years, so I needed a bit more sleep and time to myself.
But, you can't have everything, do you? so I manned up and woke up that Monday morning feeling really groggy and unmotivated to go to school, what made it somehow bearable is that I knew I was going shopping after it, I wanted to update things up in my closet and I needed a new backpack, it was good but my bank account was not happy after it.
Most of the days were work/school days, I had a lot of things to catch up on with and just go back to a healthy routine, which I'm not there yet, not even close, I'm not in the same mode as I was before summer course, I feel lazy and really tired, I've been trying to push myself to do more and more things but I just don't have the mood nor the energy to do it.
I also went to the dentist, because, here's something I haven't talked about, I'm getting braces, you may ask, why now? why not earlier if I knew I needed that much? I'm afraid of the dentist and the things they use, I don't like the idea of a human rumbling inside my mouth with god knows what, but after a few ups and downs with my new dentist, I came to the realisation that as much as I hate him, I get along with him, so the evils the least.
I got a new computer, I've had mine since (prepare yourself) 2010, I take care of all my things and I tend to hold on to them for longer than I should, but this time I knew I had to make a change, so with the help of both my lovely parents, I finally updated mine and I'm pretty happy with the one I?ve got now, it's everything I need and a bit more, I'm going to love it as much as I loved the past one.
At last, I'm finally starting the renovations in my room, I say this a lot, but my room is my safe place, it's almost like that place we have as kids were pain or worry can't go in, I'm happy and confident enough in there to cry but also laugh and sleep peacefully, but I haven't made anything mayor in a long time, the truth is that I needed to re-paint and update the art I had, it was outdated and not me to be honest, but now, it has a fresh coat of pain and I'm slowly designing it to be better and more myself.
I think that's all for now, I'll surely be checking in next week, the last of August, it's all going so fast I can't deal, but anyway, I hope you have a great week and remember to keep on dreaming.

Deciding what to wear every morning has never been a task for me, I go through phases as the semester passes by, at the beginning I like to look nice, so I put a bit more effort into what I'm wearing, as exams start to approach I tend to be more relaxed about what I'm wearing, the comfy clothes make their full appearance and finally, exams week is when I look the worst, I fully go in sweats and to be honest, I don't really tend to care that much.
But since starting to go to meetings, I have to look better than that, I'm not going to make a good impression in sweats, so lately I?ve been putting more attention into what I throw on and the image I give to others.
Here are some of my new go-to outfits, as my style has been changing lately:


Yes, they look similar, but there's something about each of them that makes them special, I would personally pair both of them with sneakers, but those are not suitable for every occasion, but if you see, the first one is a bit more on the edgier side with the pleader bomber and the boots that give a statement on their own, the second one is a more day-to-day style, more relaxed, yet put together.
This is something I'm bringing back from my earlier posts, I don't know how often I'm going to do them, I just know I enjoy them. At the end, everyone's style is different.

There are many places to visit in this city, we have a lot of museums and places of interest, unfortunately, I haven't been one of those that go out and look for adventure as much as you would think, but as I've said it way to many times, I'm trying to look out more and visit new places. 

For a long time I've been having this inside battle with myself, I never think I'm going to be good enough for anything nor anyone, this started a long time ago, I'm a people's pleaser, I like to be liked so when a person doesn't like me, I start to have a serious problem with myself.
The other day I was having this fight with my dad, we were both tired and sensitive, one thing lead to another and before you knew it, we were both saying things we certainly didn't meant but that hurt the other person a lot.
By the end of the night I was crying on my bed, thinking to myself why I'm never going to be good enough for either my parents or anyone else in the world, I started to almost panic about everyone having really high expectations on myself, but what if I never really got around to shining like anyone else wanted me to do, I started to make hideous ideas on my brain.
But at some point that same night I decided that as much as it hurt, someone (me) needed to take a step back and really look at the whole picture, we were both mad and saying things that may hurt the other, but I know that I don't feel that way about my dad and I know he doesn't feel like that either, then why was I tormenting myself so much?
I started talking with someone that's really close to my heart and has been for a while, without telling him what really happened, he told me something that it's true, will this fight matter in one year? not really, then why was I putting so much energy and time into any of this?
The reality is that no one is never going to be good enough for anyone else, you can try, you can put yourself that goal, but you are never going to get it, it's impossible, people like to criticise you and tear you apart, you have two options, you can either keep trying to please people and never be good enough or you can start doing things for yourself.
The moment you start worrying for yourself and doing things for yourself, you are going to be happy, because no one is going to be behind you trying to make you feel bad for what you are doing, remember the only person you have to give explanations to is yourself, be your own judge and you'll suddenly be good enough.

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Everyone has different back to school rituals, some like to rest, go on holiday or just take the last few days to themselves, some like to plan, pre-plan and organise the most they can before the storm arrives, some (like me) like to do all of those just to be a 100% sure that they are happy when going back to college.
De-clutter, sometimes we forget about the things we have, we just keep them for months, even years without using them, it's nice to have a good clean up of everything we have, donate what we can donate and pass things to people that may use them more and take care of them, instead of having them laying around collecting dust.
Organise, now that you don't seem to have as much mess as you had, it's time to find everything a home and just know where the things you need the most are, there's nothing worst than trying to find something for hours because it wasn't where you thought it was going to be.
Make a list of everything you may think you need and everything you know you want to do as soon as you go back, such as applying for new things, getting involved in new sports, starting new books, set yourself goals and succeed on them, most of time you make a list in your head, but as the things start to get rough, your forget about them, make a list, always works.
Update things such as calendars and agendas, there's nothing worst than going in and having no idea that your best friends birthday was last week but you forgot because you were so busy that it slipped.
Take a break, this is an important one, you cannot give your best if you are tired or not well rested, give your body time to relax and live under the pressure of having something to do, let yourself be relaxed and not so stressed about anything, do what you love, sleep a bit more and remember to have fun.
Those are a few of things that have become my to-do every time I go back to school, some of them may seem excesive but I love doing all of them, there's something quite therapeutic about this whole process, you can always adjust it to the things you think are best, as I said, some like to rest, some like to be prepared and some like to do both, it's up to you.

I've said way to many times, I write this too often, I don't know why my life tends to go all crazy on me so I can't even sit down and write down anything, but here we go again, a life update from me to you.
Where have I been? Well, if you didn't know, I started a new job back in July, it was my perfect type of job, I was an administrative assistant during a summer course, I had both my passions in there, computers and organisation, it was a temporary job where I had to run around behind teachers and kids, while having the time of my life.
I loved my job, but it was too consuming for what I want to do know, it doesn't mean that I ever gave up or that I ever left anything behind, it just meant that everything else became an option and not priority, this includes things from my other job and school, but if I'm being completely honest, it also involved my family time and my health.
This job brought amazing things into my life, I'm not going to lie, I had the amazing chance to interact with amazing people, but also start to work on my social skills that were pretty much buried under a bunch of insecurities.
Now, that job is over and so is the summer, I can say from the bottom of my heart that I'm really grateful for everyone that I got to work with and I really do wish them good in life, I hope we bump into each other some time in the future, but for now, it's time to move on.
 Where to now? I've been asking myself this question over and over during the summer, the answer? I don't know it yet, I know that I want to do a bunch of things right now, I want to keep growing and learning from others.
My mayor is coming to an end and I still haven't figured out my life yet, I know I want to make the best of it, I want to get my degree in English and maybe french, I want to especialice in something before finishing and I want to learn something new.
I want to start leaving marks everywhere, I want to explore more, I want to improve the content in here, those things have always been on my mind, but know I really want to make them happen, I'm going to start with the little things, I'm going to take my preparation exams and go by myself.
I'm starting this semester fresh and not as rested as I thought I would be, but I'm pumped to work to get somewhere and maybe spend less time at home, I'm starting with new projects right now and we'll see where I'm headed after that, I'm a work in progress and for the first time I'm forever I'm happy with that.
Have a great week and remember to keep on dreaming.

When I entered  was trying to figure out how I was going to share everything with you without getting into trouble for sharing too much or because I was losing time taking pictures, but one day I realised that I loved taking pictures and so I figured I would take advantage of some Snapchat features and show a bit of my day to you.
This was my first week:

The Big Opening of the Summer Course '16 with a dance from all the teachers.

This was one of those days, I was tired, sleepy and not in he mood.

Leaving a good day of work with a storm coming can be quite a challenge.

My favourite part of my job is having to walk through every area of the club.

This was my favourite day of the whole week, having an aquatic party is fun no matter what age you are.

It's a new concept for me, but I actually like this way of sharing things with you, I can't share everything but little bits and bobs are acceptable, hope you like it and keep on dreaming.

There's so much I want to talk about, that I don't even know where to start, first, I've already written this but thanks to dear lovely Google I had to re-write it in english, it decided to translate everything, lucky for me I decided to check it before it went up, imagine if I wouldn't.
I haven't been writing, I like to think that I've been postponing it for the right reasons, but I've had way too much in my head, starting a new job is never easy, you never know what to expect, where to go, how it's going to be like you even regret going in, but you still give it a try, if you are lucky you are going to like it, if you are not, you may have to change it.
I've been getting more and more into photography and editing, I think that's a part of my life that I never explored, it's quite tricky actually, because I love a raw picture because of it's essence, but then I can do so much while editing that I don't know which way to go.
I'm still holding strong on the fitness front, I still try to do it everyday and rest on Saturdays, but now with job I have to find a balance a dedicate some days to stretching, others to cardio, others to yoga, but I think I'm building a good routine, I think.
I'm renovating, yet again, I like changing things up, I feel like it's a good way to refresh everything and you don't need that much to get started, I started rearranging my spaces and I almost think it pumps me up to use them more, like my desk, I was hesitant to use it for the past two weeks, but know I really like it and I actually use it again.
Work is going great, I love it although, by the end of the day, I'm shattered and only wanting to sleep, but while I'm there I feel happy and almost like I found my spot in there, but then again, it's a temporary position and I'm going to have to find something for the rest of the year, but I'm going to enjoy it while it last.
Finally, my anxiety and stress have been normal, my boss has helped with this, she has an amazing mantra of not worrying, like never, she's really calmed through the day and really positive, it really pumps everyone else to have someone like her around all of us. Actually, when I first met her, I misjudged her, I was going through a rough time in life and I let my mood control my opinion of her,but now that she gave me the opportunity back, I'm starting to appreciate her.
 I think that's all, I just wanted to sit down, catch up and speak my mind, I don't get to do it as often as you would think, which is always a shame, but then again, we are fully back in business and ready for everything that's to come, remember to keep on dreaming.

August is starting and it means that this year is already coming to an end, it almost makes me feel nostalgic, I've been doing so much and enjoying it that I almost don't want it to end, but anyway, here we are, another month, another set of goals.
This month I want it to be different, I'm going to still have a job and re-start school, but there are many things I want to get done, many of which need a lot of hard work in order to get done, something I'm willing to do, I like working in order to get my dreams turned into reality, that's why this month is more balanced to that side of working to get somewhere and doing what I love.

Personal Goals

• Write more, I love writing but I don't do it as much as you would think.
• Be healthier, I'm on the right track, I already started, I just have to keep pushing myself forward.
• Visit new places, you all know how much I love this, so this month, I want to wanderlust even if it's just around the city. 
• Be productive and organised, this has stayed a lot in here for the past months, but it's something I'll always want, as I said, I want things and in order to have them, I have to work hard for them.
• Try new things, even if it's just one a month, I want to do it, I only have certain amount of time here to live and do this. 
• Be happy with myself, with the world, with everyone and everything, I want to spread positiveness.