"Desire is the starting point of all achievement"
Napoleon Hill
I live in an apartment near downtown with both my parents and not so long ago my grandma too, she left for a "vacation" with her sisters, she left for an indefinite period of time, she's done it before, but this time it feels like she's saying goodbye for good, like she's not coming back.
I still go to therapy once a week, I go by myself to talk or sometimes to let everything out, she always asks me about me and my feelings, there is where I have two options, lie or tell the truth, most of the times I lie about those horrendous feelings that she made me discover over a year ago, but this was one of those times where I needed to tell the the truth and let everything out, it has been eating me alive since my auntie died.
The truth is that I'm sad, I want to cry, I'm mad and I hate feeling like this but I can't handle goodbyes, I hate talking about them or living them, everytime I say goodbye something happens, I've lost a lot of people with a simple goodbye and I don't want to live that again, coming home to an empty space hasn't helped either, for some reason I don't know what to do or how to feel.
This days I've been trying to not think about it, I've tried almost everything in my list, reading, cooking, cleaning, writing, yoga, stretches, exercise, even sugar overload, nothing has helped me accept that she's not longer at home, reading or watching T.V.
This is the main reason of the lack of posts, I don't know what to write about, I don't now how I'm feeling.
Mayte.
The hardest thing about leaving you comfort zone is figuring what your next step is going to be.
For some people is easy, the figure it out as they go, they don't need to know anything, they just need to have a clue or a beginning and they'll go from there, for some other people, like me, it's harder as you need more than the idea you need some kind of plan to follow, you need to know what's the next step before taking it.
One of my biggest life lessons is "Do great things with love", every single one of us is amazing at something, some are good with the guitar, some are good at drawing, everyone has something that makes them special. Half of us know what they have and what they make them special, the other half needs to try and figure it out. Sometimes we stop trying out of fear, but we all have an amazing advantage, we are young, we can try and fail, we can try and succeed. You can fail and fall many times in your life, but what matters is how many times you get up and keep trying.
Of course there's going to be some rocks or bumps trying to stop you, people that don't want any body else to succeed or to be bigger than them. You can hear them and stay there or you can find you way around them and move one. If you want to fight. you need to hear what your heart and brain says, you don't want to hear what other people have to tell you.
Throuhg my life I've known people with amazing qualities and talent, sometimes I've been jealous about the things that they can do and I can't but something my dad told me the other day got me thinking. "If someone is riding a bike and you keep falling, you don't want to push that person to fall, you want to push yourself to be better and ride by their side."
For some people is easy, the figure it out as they go, they don't need to know anything, they just need to have a clue or a beginning and they'll go from there, for some other people, like me, it's harder as you need more than the idea you need some kind of plan to follow, you need to know what's the next step before taking it.
One of my biggest life lessons is "Do great things with love", every single one of us is amazing at something, some are good with the guitar, some are good at drawing, everyone has something that makes them special. Half of us know what they have and what they make them special, the other half needs to try and figure it out. Sometimes we stop trying out of fear, but we all have an amazing advantage, we are young, we can try and fail, we can try and succeed. You can fail and fall many times in your life, but what matters is how many times you get up and keep trying.
Of course there's going to be some rocks or bumps trying to stop you, people that don't want any body else to succeed or to be bigger than them. You can hear them and stay there or you can find you way around them and move one. If you want to fight. you need to hear what your heart and brain says, you don't want to hear what other people have to tell you.
Throuhg my life I've known people with amazing qualities and talent, sometimes I've been jealous about the things that they can do and I can't but something my dad told me the other day got me thinking. "If someone is riding a bike and you keep falling, you don't want to push that person to fall, you want to push yourself to be better and ride by their side."
Mayte.
Welcome Back!
I know I disappeared the whole weekend, it wasn't my fault, one of my aunties died, she was over a 100 years old and she was starting to suffer, she needed to rest, even though we knew that, it's always hard to let go someone, she saw me grow and helped tons of people, she took care of three generations in our family, she was strong and caring and I'll always remember the smell of her house when she cooked.
She left a huge gap in our hearts, but she needed to rest, she was always a really healthy person until she one doctor put a lot anaesthesia and damaged her, that's one thing that marked the rest of our lives, but now she's gone and happy.
After the two really sad days of watching her go, I remembered how bad I ate during those days, and so did my tummy, on Sunday night I woke up with a terrible tummy pain and nausea, I tried to relax and I even took a pill, but by 7:30 a.m. I was feeling so tired and sick, I spent the night sweating and coiffing, I missed work and almost 4 meals.
It wasn't my greatest weekend if you let me say so, or even the best start of the week, but at least now I have a lot of energy and a ton of things to do, I think I can do it before the week ends, I'm not taking a new break, I was giving my body what it wanted, a rest.
Mayte.
The birds singing everyday at the same time next to my window, waking up in my bed, stretching every morning, morning showers, hot tea, good nigh messages in the morning, talking with my mum, positive words, cold mornings, singing along, smiles from strangers, hot tea x2, nice messages, walking though my school, laughing with friends, laughing in class, reading, waiting for someone special, hugs, kisses, walking home, relaxing, comfy clothes, red roses, flowers, family calls, friends, sunny afternoons, sunsets, cold nights, rainy nights, talking with my parents, late night videos, late night reading, cold sheets, pyjamas, pyjama shorts, freshly washed face and teeth, dark and quite rooms. Good Night.
While I was travelling last week I realised that I don't often talk about the little things that make me happy on a daily bases, those little things that we don't give as much recognition as we should, those little things are the ones that make us smile even a little bit, those are the little things that make us realise that out lives are not empty, you know what they say, "You don't realize what you have until it's gone"
Appreciate the little things before it's too late.
While I was travelling last week I realised that I don't often talk about the little things that make me happy on a daily bases, those little things that we don't give as much recognition as we should, those little things are the ones that make us smile even a little bit, those are the little things that make us realise that out lives are not empty, you know what they say, "You don't realize what you have until it's gone"
Appreciate the little things before it's too late.
Mayte.
We have one rule in this house when it comes to going out mid-week, everyone has to be home before 8 pm, if you are home later without calling, you'll pay for the next dinner. It works for us.
My nights usually go the same way, this is my only time to really disconnect from the world, do my thing and relax without anybody telling me about the things I need to get done, this is also the one time I have with my parents to catch up on the day, my family and our future plans, I always try to make the most out of this time, it's usually the only chance in the day that we have together.
After dinner we usually go our different ways to finish off the day properly, this is my time to prepare for the next day, if I have to leave early, I'll leave everything clean and in place for the next day, If I don't have anything else, I'll go to do my routine, I'll wash my face, brush my teeth and get into comfy pyjamas to spend the rest of my night either planning, chatting with my friends or reading. My favourite nights are Saturday nights when I take a late night shower and get into comfy, clean pyjamas.
My perfect night is the one when I get to spend time with family or friends, laughing, talking, having a good time. I'm not a party girl that likes going out every Friday or Saturday night, I've been through that and as it is for now, I enjoy using this time to relax and catch up with my parents, this is my one time in the day to do it. I even avoid work during this time, I only make exceptions when I have a lot of it piling up, or it's a matter of life or death.
Have you ever experienced the pain of loosing something that's really precious for you? I have.
I went to a 24 hour trip to Morelia, as we were leaving I decided to take the book I was currently re-reading, my favourite book, "The Other Countess" by Eve Edwards, but in our way there I got motion sickness that made me feel like a 10 year old kid, as it doesn't happens that often I had nothing to do but sleep to calm my tummy down and don't throw up my minimal breakfast, when I woke up to the lovely sound of a scream of the movie my mum and I were watching, I decided it was time to start grabbing my things because we where close to our destination, in my mind I had a list: Bag, backpack, hoodie, headphones and phone, everything was with me, except my book that was hidden behind the screen, where I put it to not forget it.
We got out the bus, we kept doing our thing, I was too tired to think about my things, I just wanted proper food, my bed and a movie, the day ended and my book was still god knows where and I hadn't realised. I woke up the same time as every day 7:00 am, got up, got dressed and as I was brushing my teeth a voice screamed in my head MY BOOK IS MISSING, there's no way I can pass that, my dad gave me that book, I love that book and it's on perfect conditions, how could I leave it on the bus?
The first idea that came into my mind was buying a new one, I started searching for it, but it was way pricier and it was not going to be the same feeling. my mum suggested me that I should ask in the front desk if they found the book I just had to tell her what bus we where on and how it was. I was sad at this moment thinking about the book and how it might not get as loved as it was for me.
We got there, the lady gave us out tickets when my mum said "Ask her! They might found it" that's what I did and 4 min later I was reunited with my favourite book again. I've lost a lot of things on buses, classrooms, hotels but nothing as sentimental as this, as I said, it was a gift from my dad and it was special even if I didn't enjoy it.
What I learned was to keep my eye on the important things, it might be something important or sentimental, it doesn't matter I need to stop loosing things and then justify myself with silly excuses.
Good Night!
Mayte.
Last Monday was my last day of school, I had my last exam at 10:00 am, I was free for a long month and a half, I was going to have the freedom to do whatever I wanted, sleep as much as I wanted, I was going to be on Netflix 24/7. Life was going to be great.
Two days later my parents suggested a job with a family friend, I was thinking about it, I mean a job instead of those precious our of sleep, who could think of something better, but another part (not as sarcastic) told me, well, you've been spending more and you could use the extra money, plus, it doesn't hurt and let's be honest, you'll be bored before the month ends.
After a lot of consideration, I said yes and headed to my new boss's office, I really like him, he has been a life long family friend, he has known both my parents since before they were a thing, he is a chilled boss that teaches you a lot either about life or work and it's pretty considerate. He said yes before I even had time to say my idea, I was thrilled just with that when he told me where my office was going to be. I've had jobs before, I have a job now but never an office, I used to work with kids, or with him in the same building as now but never with a proper big office, A BIG GIRL OFFICE, I was extremely excited.
I have a lot of space. a lot of light, fresh air, a super comfortable chair, wood furniture and most importantly a lovely big screen to write on, in my free periods I've been writing more than in my desk at home. Having this new place is refreshing, inspiring and somehow not as boring as I though, I now have my old, lovely job and this one. I have to be more organized, if that's possible, but as it's for my first day I'm more than happy with my new office and my new job.
Maybe I'm taking more in my hands, maybe this was not the best choice, maybe I'll break and quite before august, at this point of my almost adult years, I like it, I feel comfortable, happy and even though I'm tired, I think that this is my best decision yet, it's not about the money, it's about trying something new, plus this job is not taking away any of my freedom, my boss told me that if I ever wanted to have the afternoons free, he had no problems, of course it's not going to be a daily thing but maybe once every two weeks. I guess that everybody's idea of summer is different.
Two days later my parents suggested a job with a family friend, I was thinking about it, I mean a job instead of those precious our of sleep, who could think of something better, but another part (not as sarcastic) told me, well, you've been spending more and you could use the extra money, plus, it doesn't hurt and let's be honest, you'll be bored before the month ends.
After a lot of consideration, I said yes and headed to my new boss's office, I really like him, he has been a life long family friend, he has known both my parents since before they were a thing, he is a chilled boss that teaches you a lot either about life or work and it's pretty considerate. He said yes before I even had time to say my idea, I was thrilled just with that when he told me where my office was going to be. I've had jobs before, I have a job now but never an office, I used to work with kids, or with him in the same building as now but never with a proper big office, A BIG GIRL OFFICE, I was extremely excited.
I have a lot of space. a lot of light, fresh air, a super comfortable chair, wood furniture and most importantly a lovely big screen to write on, in my free periods I've been writing more than in my desk at home. Having this new place is refreshing, inspiring and somehow not as boring as I though, I now have my old, lovely job and this one. I have to be more organized, if that's possible, but as it's for my first day I'm more than happy with my new office and my new job.
Maybe I'm taking more in my hands, maybe this was not the best choice, maybe I'll break and quite before august, at this point of my almost adult years, I like it, I feel comfortable, happy and even though I'm tired, I think that this is my best decision yet, it's not about the money, it's about trying something new, plus this job is not taking away any of my freedom, my boss told me that if I ever wanted to have the afternoons free, he had no problems, of course it's not going to be a daily thing but maybe once every two weeks. I guess that everybody's idea of summer is different.
Mayte.
One of my favourite things about my mornings are the singing birds outside my window and the comfort of my warm and soft bed, it takes me about ten minutes to realise that I have a life to live and a huge list that is not going to get any shorter with me in bed.
The first thing I have to do as soon as I wake up is take a shower, it's refreshing, relieving and helps me wake up to start my day, after that is when my day can take different two different directions, if I'm planning to leave my house to go to meetings, I'll start getting ready. If I'm planning to stay at home I'll pick my comfiest clothes and go for my favourite breakfast.
One important thing about my mornings is the productivity, I like when I can clean my room, my desk and update my agenda, if I can get those three things done before having to leave my house, I'll feel great the rest of the day. It doesn't matter if I'm staying home or leaving the house, I have to make my bed and leave my bedroom clean, It makes me feel better when I get home and I can relax instead of having to clean my mess.
I'm always starving by 8:00 that's when the fun part of my day starts, I'll make myself breakfast while I chat with my mother about some news or work stuff, then I'll enjoy my breakfast while I read some of my favourite blogs or catch up with some e-mails. After that if I'm leaving I'll organise my stuff to be ready to leave, if I'm staying, I'll spend more time than usual reading and then I usually start doing what's on my to-do list for the day.
P.S. I do go to college, the only difference from those days is the time I wake up, this routine takes me about one hour, so I'll usually wake up 1:15 before I have to leave my house.
Mayte.
Everyone says that life is as easy or hard as you want it to be, I wanted to sleep this week and instead I went to a 24 hour trip to Morelia for work and family issues with my mom, just to come back to a lot of work.
Last week was a crazy one, everything started the same way it does every week, work to catch up, things to do and paper work that needed to get done ASAP, when my mum hinted the trip to me and I wanted to say no, but to be honest, I can't let her travel by herself any more and I though it was going to be fun for us two, two days to ourselves, she called me that Monday afternoon to tell that everything was ready for us to arrive. It was a hectic trip, a really tiring one.
After that as soon as we got home we had phone calls to do, e-mails to respond and a lot of work to do, the next days where about the catching up, even with my sleep, a mid-week travel was not as exciting as I though but it was fun to have that time without cellphones or distractions, just fresh air and a lot of talking.
Every time I travel like that I value more and more the little things that I have at home. That inspired me to write about that this week, about the things that I enjoy doing, the little things that make me feel happy and in control of the situation.
This week I'm focusing in two things, Writing and Reading, I've been working on that creative blocking that I had and those things are the ones that have been helping me to get though that, you forget how much you enjoy doing something until you do it again.
Have an amazing start of the week and don't forget to stay smiling.
Mayte.
Travelling is one of my biggest passions and I consider myself really lucky to have the chance to do it a lot. One of my favourites cities is Morelia, a beautiful city that has been trapped in a wonderful period of time, I grew in this city, we used to go on holidays all the time, I love the chilled vibe that the city gives, you'll find something exciting every corner, every building has a story to tell you and the people is amazingly nice with you.
When my mom and I planned this trip, we usually though that we had three days to travel- meet family- fix problems- travel back, later that day we discovered that if we wanted to do it in those days, we needed to do it in two days instead of three, we both had work issues that needed our hole attention and leaving everything for three days was not suitable.
We went for the more suitable plan, we had to get up and be ready by 5:30 am, to travel for about 6 hours to get to our destination the country house of the family, we got just in time to fix the paper work that was waiting for us, to head back to Morelia to have a nice family walk around down town, to go back to have dinner, to the house of my auntie that kindly let us stay there for the night, to head out and back to the city by 10 am. It was a crazy, tiring trip, as you can see, I didn't shoot as many pictures as I would wanted to, but I'm pretty happy with the ones I got.
I hope that you liked the pictures as much as I did, have a great weekend and stay smiling.
When my mom and I planned this trip, we usually though that we had three days to travel- meet family- fix problems- travel back, later that day we discovered that if we wanted to do it in those days, we needed to do it in two days instead of three, we both had work issues that needed our hole attention and leaving everything for three days was not suitable.
We went for the more suitable plan, we had to get up and be ready by 5:30 am, to travel for about 6 hours to get to our destination the country house of the family, we got just in time to fix the paper work that was waiting for us, to head back to Morelia to have a nice family walk around down town, to go back to have dinner, to the house of my auntie that kindly let us stay there for the night, to head out and back to the city by 10 am. It was a crazy, tiring trip, as you can see, I didn't shoot as many pictures as I would wanted to, but I'm pretty happy with the ones I got.
I hope that you liked the pictures as much as I did, have a great weekend and stay smiling.
Mayte.
To my old friend:
It's been months, isn't it? We were in high school the last time I saw you, I know that you might be surprised or confused, I know I left really abruptly and I'm really sorry.
There are no words that can really compensate for the lost time between us, I know that you may hate me know, you found out about the lies, everyone started talking about me, again, and I know how much you hate that kind of attention, I tried to keep you out of my mess, It didn't worked out.
I know it's too hard to let me in, I didn't come back for that, I know that you may not need me or that you are not really interested on having me as a friend, I know and I understand, I wasn't expecting that warm welcome after the things that I did. I'm really sorry for not really answering your calls, messages, everything that you send me, just to know if I was all right. I needed to fix those things that made me change so much, those problems that I created and I knew that if I told anybody it was going to be really hard to say goodbye.
I'm glad I found someone as amazing as you in life, I'm happy that you decided to be my friend even though you knew how bad the problems where, I'm so grateful for all of the things that you brought into my life, I'll always have those fun memories with you, us fooling around like kids, laughing, even with our homework.
I'm really happy to see how far you came, how much you grew and learnt from that experience, I can't wish you anything but the best, you are amazing and I really hope that you remember my words "I'm back for good, not to take you away from your life but to help you if you need it, I wont interfere, I'll work on my life too, you may hear from me, I'm really working on the better person thing. My number hasn't changed in case you want to talk to me"
I mean it, I hope that you do amazing things, I'll be here if you need me.
It's been months, isn't it? We were in high school the last time I saw you, I know that you might be surprised or confused, I know I left really abruptly and I'm really sorry.
There are no words that can really compensate for the lost time between us, I know that you may hate me know, you found out about the lies, everyone started talking about me, again, and I know how much you hate that kind of attention, I tried to keep you out of my mess, It didn't worked out.
I know it's too hard to let me in, I didn't come back for that, I know that you may not need me or that you are not really interested on having me as a friend, I know and I understand, I wasn't expecting that warm welcome after the things that I did. I'm really sorry for not really answering your calls, messages, everything that you send me, just to know if I was all right. I needed to fix those things that made me change so much, those problems that I created and I knew that if I told anybody it was going to be really hard to say goodbye.
I'm glad I found someone as amazing as you in life, I'm happy that you decided to be my friend even though you knew how bad the problems where, I'm so grateful for all of the things that you brought into my life, I'll always have those fun memories with you, us fooling around like kids, laughing, even with our homework.
I'm really happy to see how far you came, how much you grew and learnt from that experience, I can't wish you anything but the best, you are amazing and I really hope that you remember my words "I'm back for good, not to take you away from your life but to help you if you need it, I wont interfere, I'll work on my life too, you may hear from me, I'm really working on the better person thing. My number hasn't changed in case you want to talk to me"
I mean it, I hope that you do amazing things, I'll be here if you need me.
Mayte.
I made mistakes in the past, some big ones, some small ones, I hurt a lot of people, I even ran away from a lot of them, I even made some of my good friends hate me and I really don't blame them for that, I made really bad things at that time.
Everything started when one of my friends told me to do whatever I though was right, then my therapist told me to close chapters with people that I either hurt or they hurt me, two people came right into my head, two good friends that at the time were great for me but the relationship became toxic.
I needed to take them out of my life, I needed to move on and so did they, the fights, the crying, the wining, they don't deserve any of that, I know that I was guilty of all of this, I know that our relationship changed abruptly after those bad moments in my life, I know that I caused all of this, we both need peace and time to heal. I don't think I lost them, it's like a time out, a time to think about us, a time apart to heal...
We can't heal if we are together, our relationship is too toxic for that, maybe sometime we will be reunited, with different conditions and better mood, I hope...
The one with the back pain.
I've been having this horrible back pain all week, my dad says it's all about stress, my mom says that I need some kind of activity, I say it's because I need to relax and move more.
There was a time where I used to stretch every single day and I remember feeling better, as it is for now I haven't been doing as much activity as I wish, the main reason? Lack of time.
I know that this may be the lamest excuse, but really my agenda has been filled from 9 am 'till 6 pm when I have to do study or I'm way to tired to do anything, I indeed have been doing a lot of walking but that hasn't helped at all. I'm trying to add some time to stretch every morning and every night, not just to help my back but it's also great for relaxing.
This week was hectic enough by itself, I wrote something that will be going up but I don't think they are as good as other had been, I haven't been feeling like myself when I write and I know it's because I'm blocked, I haven't sat down to write in a long time, what I need to do to fix this is to really just sit down and let the ideas flow from my head to my fingers.
This week there are three things I want to focus on, My Health, My Writing and My Organization. I've been changing some things around and It's turning out to be great. I hope I can report better news next week.
I've been having this horrible back pain all week, my dad says it's all about stress, my mom says that I need some kind of activity, I say it's because I need to relax and move more.
There was a time where I used to stretch every single day and I remember feeling better, as it is for now I haven't been doing as much activity as I wish, the main reason? Lack of time.
I know that this may be the lamest excuse, but really my agenda has been filled from 9 am 'till 6 pm when I have to do study or I'm way to tired to do anything, I indeed have been doing a lot of walking but that hasn't helped at all. I'm trying to add some time to stretch every morning and every night, not just to help my back but it's also great for relaxing.
This week was hectic enough by itself, I wrote something that will be going up but I don't think they are as good as other had been, I haven't been feeling like myself when I write and I know it's because I'm blocked, I haven't sat down to write in a long time, what I need to do to fix this is to really just sit down and let the ideas flow from my head to my fingers.
This week there are three things I want to focus on, My Health, My Writing and My Organization. I've been changing some things around and It's turning out to be great. I hope I can report better news next week.
Mayte
Last week I was talking with a friend and we were joking about going out when I said, "What about if we go to The Castle?" she said yes and then we forced another good friend to join us, as you do, we started early because even though we had been there, we didn't remember how long the trip was going to be, when we got there, we were amazed, we knew that we needed to go up the hill in order to get to the castle, the walk was longer and tiring than you imagine, but when we saw the view everything was worth it.
The Castle is in the middle of the city, it's a museum, it's beautiful, as soon as we got there I felt like a kid again. Unfortunately, I forgot to take pictures, so when I came back home and I saw the pictures I was kind of annoyed with myself but I still wanted to share some of this with you, because I really enjoyed the hole trip.
We got wet, we talked about boys, we ate McDonalds, we went to The Castle, we went to the zoo, we had an amazing time, I love days like this, hope you enjoyed it.
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| I love this picture, I was taking it, when my friend tried to locate the zoo. |
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| I was taking the picture, when my friend stood there and I couldn't contain myself. |
Mayte.
Every toast needs a reason and I have a really good one for this one. I would love to propose a toast to the good memories we are leaving behind in that amazing place that once was our second home, the place that saw us grow, the place where more than 50 generations grew and learnt.
They say that as long as you have the memories you don't need the place or the person, well I disagree, I came back to that place because I wanted to refresh my memory, I wanted to see the place I grew again, I never expected it to be last time I was going to go through those doors.
I remember the first day I went through those doors, I was nervous, I was going to a new place, new people, I didn't knew how ready I was to make that change, I may not have found there long time friendships, but I indeed found people that helped me grow, people that saw me grow, I learned more than maths or science, I learnt about life. I found amazing people with amazing lessons to teach, I found knowledge behind those doors, and know those doors are getting closed, leaving behind more than 54 years of traditions and memories.
It's hard to let go a place full of people that saw you grow and develop to be the person you are now, it's hard to let go the memories you made in that place, it's hard to let go... I'm just hoping that someday someone fills those walls again with amazing memories, people.
I laugh, I cried, I grew, I learnt, I screamed, I ran, I made friends, I got my heart broken... I cannot let that place go that easily.
I raise my glass for you, my beloved high school.
Mayte.
P.S. this post is a really emotional one for me, my high school is closing and there's nothing anyone can say know, I'm just hoping is for the best, I'm wishing good luck to all my teachers and all of the people that worked there, my heart was broken when I heard the news and I'm still in shock, there is something I never though it would happen, but I guess that nothing is forever, I hope that those memories stick to those walls but that it also leaves space for new ones, I met amazing people in that place. I know that high school can be rough for some people and although I had bad times there too, I have really good memories from that place and it's always sad to see how after many years that amazing place is closing.
Summer is here, I'm not out of school quite yet, but I do have some big things in my mind for this summer, so I figured, I would write about and set all of those things as goals.
I want to work to have healthier and better habits, the past month I was so bad, I ate whatever I wanted, I went to bed late, I slept through the day, I was so grumpy and out of myself that I figured I had to do something to improve, I want to start with something easy, I want to GO TO BED AND WAKE UP AT THE SAME TIME EVERYDAY, I need that routine back into my life, when I had it, I was rested and in a better morning mood, next thing is GOING FOR WALKS, I really like running and it gives me an escape for whatever is going on in my life and helps me feel better, more creative and it's really great for me. Of course after a good run you need to EAT HEALTHY, this past month I have been eating terribly, burgers, chips, chocolate, cookies, you name it, my tummy is so mad at me and I really feel gross and heavy, and it's not like I don't like fruits, it's just that I have been really bad with myself.
Next thing is that I want to be really PRODUCTIVE AND ORGANISED and do what's in my To-Do list everyday, I want to up my game and really get things done, instead on blaming the clock for not having more hours, this summer I want to have super productive days when I get my work done and write a lot, this is my perfect time to approach things that I've left for later months ago.
Another one, I really want to GO OUT WITH MY FRIENDS, with those awesome human beings that have helped through those rough time in my life, that have been trying to contact me to go out for months now, I love my friends and how supportive they have been with me, so I'm taking all that time that's needed to go out with them and enjoy their company.
Finally, I want to DO MORE OF WHAT I LOVE, such things as reading, drawing, dancing, even writing, It's been a long time since the last time I took the time to do something like that and I miss it a lot.
This is what I want to do with my summer, get into a healthy routine and do the things I love, I feel like this is the real time to do those sort of things, as we tend to have warmer weather, extra time and it's just a beautiful time of the year. Have a great summer and don't the same opportunities over and over, so take advantage of what's going on in your life and just enjoy yourself.
Let's go out to feel like kids again.
Mayte
Another thing that changed, Sunday's post are going to be a little bit different, I was having a really hard time writing both Saturday and Sunday's posts, because I somehow found them redundant, so I'm combining them, this is a week review and preview, I think it's going to work well.
This week was all over the place, at the beginning I had this huge list of things to do and I really wish I was exaggerating on this one, I was re-organizing my closet (Again) I had lots of paper work to do and to end up with that I had to go to visit my doctor and my dentist, it's worth saying that not everything got done.
Monday and Tuesday where the worst days, I got wet, I got mad, I even cried a little bit, but as the week moved forward so did my mood, the rest of the week was about my old friends and resting, of course now I have to come to a coffee shop to focus on all of the work that I left behind, but I'm pretty happy with my week.
I think that my main goal for this upcoming week is to really focus on those new projects and really get stuff done, because although I really enjoyed those computer free days, my To-Do list is not getting any shorter and I really have to find a good way to finish my school year on good terms, as for the beginning of my summer, I think I'm going to keep this one simple and full of fun with old friends, at the end I only have like 5 weeks of real summer.
I hope that you have an amazing beginning of the month, week and day of course. Remember that as long as you are happy with it, the world doesn't matters.
Mayte.
This is the third time I try to write this and no matter how much try, it's not getting any easier.
More than a month ago my cousin had an accident, I wrote about it, I told what was going on and I also wrote about how I was feeling a little bit down about the hole thing but I had to be as strog as possible for my parents, my family, they used me as support. I don't know if you have gone through any of that but it sucks, I was feeling tired and pressured. The only day that I had to myself was the day I donated blood, because I pretty much had to.
When he came out of the hospital, my mom started having a lot of trouble, she staring feeling worst than me and that started to worry me, that week we took a family break to make her feel better, and to charge our batteries because we had to go back to our lives, it was hard, a really tough weekend for me.
After that I had to work on all of the things I left before the accident, as I said, I had a life to catch on too, even though my body was still recovering from my blood donation, I had to do my magic and get through this. The following weeks were pretty much more of the same, me feeling terribly sad, saying that I was feeling just fine when I wasn't and thanking other people for helping me.
Then I started going back to therapy, because my anxiety went right up to the point where I was lying to everybody to be able to be home all day, I was doing the same thing everyday, sleeping a lot to the point where my parents got really worried about my condition and talked with my therapist, it took a good week to decide to say yes and go out, she made me realize what I was doing and luckily for me, I had friends and family pushing forward
That's when I saw that June was over and I didn't left this blog behind, I just needed to be better to transmit that, I'm still getting over this hole situation, but when I say I'm better I really mean it, I'm ready to get back into the swing of things and I'm really excited with everything that's on it's way.
If you are going though bad time, try to talk to someone you are comfortable with, don't feel like you are alone on this, someone out there is ready to help you out.
More than a month ago my cousin had an accident, I wrote about it, I told what was going on and I also wrote about how I was feeling a little bit down about the hole thing but I had to be as strog as possible for my parents, my family, they used me as support. I don't know if you have gone through any of that but it sucks, I was feeling tired and pressured. The only day that I had to myself was the day I donated blood, because I pretty much had to.
When he came out of the hospital, my mom started having a lot of trouble, she staring feeling worst than me and that started to worry me, that week we took a family break to make her feel better, and to charge our batteries because we had to go back to our lives, it was hard, a really tough weekend for me.
After that I had to work on all of the things I left before the accident, as I said, I had a life to catch on too, even though my body was still recovering from my blood donation, I had to do my magic and get through this. The following weeks were pretty much more of the same, me feeling terribly sad, saying that I was feeling just fine when I wasn't and thanking other people for helping me.
Then I started going back to therapy, because my anxiety went right up to the point where I was lying to everybody to be able to be home all day, I was doing the same thing everyday, sleeping a lot to the point where my parents got really worried about my condition and talked with my therapist, it took a good week to decide to say yes and go out, she made me realize what I was doing and luckily for me, I had friends and family pushing forward
That's when I saw that June was over and I didn't left this blog behind, I just needed to be better to transmit that, I'm still getting over this hole situation, but when I say I'm better I really mean it, I'm ready to get back into the swing of things and I'm really excited with everything that's on it's way.
If you are going though bad time, try to talk to someone you are comfortable with, don't feel like you are alone on this, someone out there is ready to help you out.
Mayte.
Hello!
It's been a month since the last time I posted anything in here, I can lie and say that I needed that time off, or even say that I was too busy, I have good reason and I'm going to explain what happened but not today, this post is to talk about the changes I made as you can tell, this is not the same space we were used to look at. I needed something new, fresh, more like me.
The appearance changed a lot, yes, the content didn't, I'm happy with the things I write about and I don't think it needed a changes, yet, I'm adding new things like LifeStyle posts, someone told me once that posting about that was boring like reading about a magazine, I disagree with him now, I like when I can share the new places I went, the new adventures, the things that have worked for me, those are a huge part of my life too, so I said why not? At the end of the day is about being happy with what you do instead of trying to make others happy.
That's why you can see the LIFESTYLE menu up there, you have different options there, such as Books, the ones that made the cut and that I can read over and over and not get sick of them, Music has an Spotify playlist where you'll find the music that I love through the months, Food and My City are part of something new I really want to try, I love both my city and food, so I'll try to document as much of this as it's possible, you'l sure be seeing some of my friends on the pictures if they want to be included, Style every season I pick new pieces that I try to add to my closet that go with my style, something new for me, I know I am a jeans and tee kinda girl but I like fashion, so let's see how that goes and finally, Series/Videos/Movies is about the shows, YouTube videos or movies that I enjoy watching, I may not be having the biggest list on this one, just because I don't really have the time, but I'll make my best, I think that every once in a while we need that little time to enjoy something and not really think about it.
I'll keep writing as usual, as I said, I'm happy with the things I write but I think it needed that new content to refresh everything, I'm so excited with all of things that are coming.
Finally I have a new schedule, every post will be going up Sunday, Monday, Wednesday and Friday.
Thanks for waiting and don't forget to keep dreaming.
It's been a month since the last time I posted anything in here, I can lie and say that I needed that time off, or even say that I was too busy, I have good reason and I'm going to explain what happened but not today, this post is to talk about the changes I made as you can tell, this is not the same space we were used to look at. I needed something new, fresh, more like me.
The appearance changed a lot, yes, the content didn't, I'm happy with the things I write about and I don't think it needed a changes, yet, I'm adding new things like LifeStyle posts, someone told me once that posting about that was boring like reading about a magazine, I disagree with him now, I like when I can share the new places I went, the new adventures, the things that have worked for me, those are a huge part of my life too, so I said why not? At the end of the day is about being happy with what you do instead of trying to make others happy.
That's why you can see the LIFESTYLE menu up there, you have different options there, such as Books, the ones that made the cut and that I can read over and over and not get sick of them, Music has an Spotify playlist where you'll find the music that I love through the months, Food and My City are part of something new I really want to try, I love both my city and food, so I'll try to document as much of this as it's possible, you'l sure be seeing some of my friends on the pictures if they want to be included, Style every season I pick new pieces that I try to add to my closet that go with my style, something new for me, I know I am a jeans and tee kinda girl but I like fashion, so let's see how that goes and finally, Series/Videos/Movies is about the shows, YouTube videos or movies that I enjoy watching, I may not be having the biggest list on this one, just because I don't really have the time, but I'll make my best, I think that every once in a while we need that little time to enjoy something and not really think about it.
I'll keep writing as usual, as I said, I'm happy with the things I write but I think it needed that new content to refresh everything, I'm so excited with all of things that are coming.
Finally I have a new schedule, every post will be going up Sunday, Monday, Wednesday and Friday.
Thanks for waiting and don't forget to keep dreaming.
Mayte.
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